25 December 2013


Hai and assalamualaikum =)

To knowing that you are not as tough as you think, possibly ruins your night. Everything was too bad. Crying a lot every night before you feel calm are too bad and either more and more!

I just cannot stop crying and I know this is too stupid. Laying on bed and suddenly you getting up and just sat on the left of your bed crying over and over and you replaying all the memories on your head, this is too much! Really killing your heart without you knowing. I wish my heart has no feeling of all.

Watching you happy without me at your side was good but not me. I'm suffer and got insanely! I miss you bodoh! Really do! Ain't you feel the same to me?! I just hate it all!!!!!!

Wassalam =(

Xoxo, Scha

22 December 2013

Hai and assalamualaikum =)

Can you feel what I feel? Gosh seriously you are?! Hoping the same..

My stomach having butterflies. A weeks! What is going on dude! I think, this is too much weh. Perasaan yang macam tak tentu arah. Lepastuh kepala hotak kau tak boleh fikir benda lain selain ya. Pepaham jelah..

Aku nak nangis. Tapi aku tahan. Aku kuat. Itu jelah. I just need somebody that could hear all of my tears, babbling and so on. Aku rasa down, frustrated and so more! An even I cannot write it here!!!

I just can pray. Hoping things be fine or maybe over. My pray, want it goes well and ease. Aku taknak serabut kepala fikir masalah yang tiada penghujung. Kau tak duduk tempat aku. Apa aku rasa. Aku down sangat :'(

Wasalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

21 December 2013

Hai and assalamualaikum =)

Another week to move on. Another day to live. Another hour to taking a breath. Another minute to see the miracle.

I was in misery. To living in the world. It was like, everything is not okay. My heart beat so fast. My stomach like cannot accept anything else than fate. My eyes was unable to see all things. Like, I'm in dead..

To moving slowly it was too hard. Pathetic. Sighing all the way around. I'm confused. For right now, my eyes like do not want to cry. Heart feeling want to shout till the rain come. The thunder are ready to terrorize. 

Too easy to broke. But, hard to get it back as usually.

Like seriously,
I'm in dead..

Wassalam =)


Xoxo, Scha