Hai and assalamualaikum =)

To knowing that you are not as tough as you think, possibly ruins your night. Everything was too bad. Crying a lot every night before you feel calm are too bad and either more and more!

I just cannot stop crying and I know this is too stupid. Laying on bed and suddenly you getting up and just sat on the left of your bed crying over and over and you replaying all the memories on your head, this is too much! Really killing your heart without you knowing. I wish my heart has no feeling of all.

Watching you happy without me at your side was good but not me. I'm suffer and got insanely! I miss you bodoh! Really do! Ain't you feel the same to me?! I just hate it all!!!!!!

Wassalam =(

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum =)

Can you feel what I feel? Gosh seriously you are?! Hoping the same..

My stomach having butterflies. A weeks! What is going on dude! I think, this is too much weh. Perasaan yang macam tak tentu arah. Lepastuh kepala hotak kau tak boleh fikir benda lain selain ya. Pepaham jelah..

Aku nak nangis. Tapi aku tahan. Aku kuat. Itu jelah. I just need somebody that could hear all of my tears, babbling and so on. Aku rasa down, frustrated and so more! An even I cannot write it here!!!

I just can pray. Hoping things be fine or maybe over. My pray, want it goes well and ease. Aku taknak serabut kepala fikir masalah yang tiada penghujung. Kau tak duduk tempat aku. Apa aku rasa. Aku down sangat :'(

Wasalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum =)

Another week to move on. Another day to live. Another hour to taking a breath. Another minute to see the miracle.

I was in misery. To living in the world. It was like, everything is not okay. My heart beat so fast. My stomach like cannot accept anything else than fate. My eyes was unable to see all things. Like, I'm in dead..

To moving slowly it was too hard. Pathetic. Sighing all the way around. I'm confused. For right now, my eyes like do not want to cry. Heart feeling want to shout till the rain come. The thunder are ready to terrorize. 

Too easy to broke. But, hard to get it back as usually.

Like seriously,
I'm in dead..

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Oh rindunya dekat blog. Rindu gila! Dulu masa zaman kegemilangan, hari-2 nak post entry. Balik sekolah, up! Up! And again. Hehe

Now aku dah habis sekolah. Oh I'm so glad to knowing it! But, I'm going to miss it. Bukan senang. I meant, senang tinggal tapi kenangan kita tak mungkin senang untuk dilupakan. Banyak sangat kenangan manis, pahit, tawar, lesir semua. How can I forget bout it? Wish I will never forgetting all the kind memories. I'm so in loved with it! Sigh..

Dekat dua minggu jugak aku dah habis sekolah. Sorry. I cannot up some of the photos when I'm in school. Either past or the new one. Gambar aku habis periksa SPM haritu ada satu je. Yang lain, burn! Cause that day on my way balik Kluang from KL, in the bus I accidentally terrrrrrrrrrr delete my camera's album! Gosh meraung aku dalam bas. Called my Akim and ask him to help me to get the photos back! Impossible of course. So now, I just let it be. I have it. In my mind. I know I can bearly to save it. Okay, never mind!

So, I'm a jobless now. Photography? Taktahu lah nak sambung ke dak. Macam dah takde hati. Aku cepat berubah. Hobi aku tak tentu. Susah hidup! Cemana akan datang nak kerja? Dah lah cerewet! Kay ngutuk diri sendiri. Takpeeeeeeeee ekekeke

So just that for tonight. Sebab dah malam kan. Besuk aku up lagik. Badan penat sakit-2. Dah berapa hari tak boleh tido. Kalau tido pun pukul 3 atau 4 pagi. Gila. Insomniaaaaaaaa!!!

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Sigh..

Hai and assalamualaikum my lovelies reader =)

I'm no longer know him as before. He is change. Totally, he was! I was expecting more than this but.. Hmm ruins!  Either by me, nor him. I don't know.

Now, I used to alone. By myself. Dulu, bolehlah cerita itu ini to someone. Now, I rather keep it by myself. I'm too frustated. I'm hoping too much! Well I meant, I'm too hoping till the sky. Now, hmm..

I even not crying for this. If he really meant to me, he will. If he is not, I may cry. A while maybe. Take a time to feel the sadness. All things was changed too fast till I never realises. Suprisingly, I was still stood like things are usual. Amazing me..

I never care bout him any more since he was like acuh tak acuh to me. I cried a lot that night. Too much! Luckily I'm alone so I can shouting at home.

I don't know what to do now. Confused, disappointed, frustrated and so many more. Words cannot describe how I feel. Tear tella you everything!

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

When you cannot guarantee what will coming the next, I'm pretty sure that you will plan something better in your life. I mean is, to be alone. By yours..

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha