Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

I am in the midst of the night that waking up and the boredom strikes me when I feel wanna get something entertain me. Pathetic. Every single things that I do it is don't ever make me feel happy. And so. I'm trying to make but yet, feeling wanna cry. 

I call him before he fell asleep. He's sleepy and that is the reason why I'm feeling so bored! No, feeling wanna cry. No, I'm totally bored. No, I miss him. Yes I do..

Sigh

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

We make love, not war :)

Love, we're already 5months! Happy us, lucky :) For surely I'm happy here after 5months we face through all the things, yet still loving. Hihi

So here we are! We met after four days that we didn't meet and so miss. Much! We're all out our miss of each other and replying and all of that. Weeeeeee~

Our photo together today. 6 November 2012. 

He pick me in front of my house then pergi KM dia nak betolkan phone dia. Haritue format mende entah then BBM hilang bagai. After that pergi solat kat KM. Makan jeruk strawberry dalam kereta habis untuk aku sorang. Pergi tasik jenjalan ingat balik first-2 kenal then nangis bagai whateverso lol. Then jenjalan lagik and pergi beli sim card bagai pergi kedai Cik Ti aku amik ayam goreng pergi kedai belakang so ya beli burger lepak depan rumah makan burger together look sweet much menjerit macam orang sakai nak mampus main game gurau-2 gelak bagai amik gambo salam nak balik dia jerit macam nak kena rogol that time sumpah lawak! Hahahaha then ya the end! Hihihi

I LOVE YOU FITRI HAKIM

HAPPY 5 MONTHS TOGETHER

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE ♥

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

RINDU 

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AMAT

SANGAT

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PLEASE

COME

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Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

I knew that I'm start it first and I knew too that should end it of this war. But I can't! This is not what I want for the everyday. No..

Should I walk away? FUCK how can this be in my mind now?! I don't know. My mind stuck for while now. I'd be thinking, this is not the way to solve the problems between us. Just walk away and not turn around. Oh My Lord! How can I think of that. Please I'm begging do not separate us cause this is my only love that I want :'(

I'll maybe die if He not around me cause now I'm already dying here cause I want him. Seriously, I miss him much. Too much. Much more!!

I just... I just want to meet him, that's all! I do favor not ask more than that. Just want to meet him. ONLY! :'(

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

SAMPAI BILA?!

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Sedih.
Sangat!
Tiada sesiapa yang mengerti perasaan aku buad ketika ini.
Tuhan berikan aku airmata untuk melepaskan kesedihan.
Tuhan berikan aku hati untuk tabah menghadapi dugaan.

Aku terima.
Aku redha..

Kalaw lhaa dia tahu yang aku,
Hmm
Aku rindukan dia.
Dan semestinya aku ingin berjumpa dengannya.
Apa perasaan dia?

Laman sosial Twitter dia.
Aku stalk.
Aku terbaca.
Terdiam, terduduk buad seketika.
And I wonder, how happy he is.
And I know.
That I'm disturbing him.
Never mind. I'm okay. No worries :')

Terasa.
Tapi tak mengapa. Rileks sudah.
Watlek, watcool.
Tapi tak jugak aku rasa. Sama je rasa tuh.
Diam..

Telefon berdering.
Aku jawab.
"Hello?"
Terdengar suara lelaki.
Aku kenal suara itu. Aku matikan panggilan.
Dalam hati,
"Kenapa carik aku?"
Berkali-kali. Aku diam. Seribu bahasa...

Terima satu pesanan ringkas.
Aku baca, aku biarkan.
Bukan apa, tak tambah nilai lagik.
Aku keluar, lepak.
Sekejap. Aku masuk ke dalam.
Nak tidur lelapkan mata.
Tak boleh!
Terbayangkan benda yang tak pasti di fikiran. Aku biarkan..

Aku rindu.
Nak jumpa.
Boleh tak?

Tapi bila?!

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Apa yang ada dalam hati?

Dalam hati ada cinta.

Apa yang ada dalam cinta?

Dalam cinta ada kasih.

Apa yang ada dalam kasih?

Dalam kasih ada sayang.

Apa yang ada dalam sayang?

Dalam sayang ada rindu..

Penghuraian aku terhadap hati. Hati manusia. Tersirat dengan seribu satu makna. Benci, marah. Semuanya dalam hati. Tiada siapa yang tahu..

Aku seorang manusia. Dan juga seorang pelakon. Pelakon dunia. Dunia ini penuh drama. Aku, memulakan segala cerita dan drama. Hasil karyaku, tiada siapa yang tahu kecuali AKU!

Rindu? Haruslah. Aku rindu akan terhadap kekasih hatiku. Dia yang mewarnai hidupku buad saat ini. 
Setiap hari aku rindu akan si Dia. Dia tahu tak yang aku rindu sangat kat dia? Hmm

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

How I wish that I have the tickets of smile so I can give it away to the people when I'm sad. And probably, they will never see me sad. Yes! That is what I want. So tired being the drama infront of them. Ya, I need too..

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Today kerja nak hapdet belog jea. Cause I'm bored. Yes I am! Tomorrow math test. I'm dying there. Lol -.-

Did you see that? No no. Not the teddy bears but the baby is in the picture! Homaigod! Comel sangatttt!! Me so geram okay with the baby. Well ya actually I'm a kids lover there. I love the kiddos and babies. They were so cute! But the part I hated most bila kiddos yang comot-2 and selekeh. Rasa nak pang jeah -.- Did their parent do not taking them well?

And ya, even I'm sixteen years old, I'm already plan for my future soon. Mean my study, career, married, family and surely the babies! Oh damn it please time do faster fly it away so then I can be adult so fast! I want to reach it all my dreams to be real as what I plan. Hmm nampak tak kegatalan nak kahwin cepat dapat baby? Sure lhaa! Hahahaa the age girls were same like me surely plan a something for their future just like ME! Arghhhhhhhhhhhh

If I go back to my hometown and I saw my cousin's baby, surely I'll go and catch them hug kiss them until crying! Hahaha isn't too much? Yes I know. I've shouldn't do that to them but ya, disebabka I terlalu sayang and sukakan budak and I need to do it. Sound creepy there...

Here is the photos that I'd took in my files. Well actually most the baby photos is all my niece. Ya sangat comel hokeh! Fuhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

Mia ♥

Irfan ♥

Qaseh ♥

Opssss! Ya the last one is not I'm goggling atcelli. Hihi. Love her eyes. So big and her lips so cute. And ya see? Okay not too much the photos but yet still I have it! Awhhh adore much. Soon insyaAllah panjang umur gonna get what I want and ya, Allah will send me the lovelies and cutest baby to me and the baby will be mine. Amin. Pray for my life and my health. Amin ya rab :)

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Thank you. For everything.

Love you. For always.

Miss you. For everyday.

Pray us. For everytime.

I had just spent it all just for us. No worries there. You'll always be in my heart, Fitri Hakim ♥

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Hal terindah dari seorang wanita adalah bukan saat dia tersenyum bahagia, tetapi saat butiran airmatanya terjatuh saat berdoa..

Bukan kerana kecantikan yang mempersona, tetapi kerana sujud rukuknya yang tiada henti..

Atau bukan kerana keelokan tubuh yang dipamerkan, tetapi kerana keteguhannya Imannya dalam menjaga aurat..

Maka ia adalah permata yang dirindukan dan embun yang dinantikan, bahkan bidadari Syurga pun cemburu kerananya..

Itulah Kecantikan Seorang Muslimah. SubhanAllah ♥

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

People tryin' to bring me down. Hey dudes! Come on. Don't be like this lhaa. I'm happy now. Totally happy. I don't even mind with your rumours. Don't care what you're gonna say about me and my life. Well at least, I'm not disturbing and entering all of your problems. You are my friend right? You shouldn't say like that. Hmpp please. Just give me a space for a happiness that I've been through now. So sorry to said but I'll maybe no longer will believe what rumours gonna say about my relationship. I don't even enter you guys business. Hmpppp

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha 

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

When I scroll down my TL, I just read about the rumours. Or maybe true story. No, I don't wanna know about it. Rumours or else, I don't know. Don't even know kay! Tak nak tahu. As long as I not see it in front of my two ball of eyes, I will not believe it. Allah knew the story is, let He plan it as well. We live in a story. Earth as the location where is we're start the drama. We just only as the actor. Well. Keep in faith. World is full of fake. I just let 'em be..

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Hey yoo! Guys we're already in October now. Oh gosh time flies so fast! Dear October, please be nice and sexy classy sassy for me please? Hahaha lol -.-

And ya, today I wanna story about this last week. With HIM for sure!!! Arghhhhh demmit

Okay seminggu yang lepas my Honey balik Kluang with no tell me that he nak balik sini. Okay fine. He makes surprised for me yang memang gila babi menyirap semua ada. Sakit hati lhaa jugakkan. That night I called him and ask where's he that time cause background call so noisy and all. And ya, he told me that he is on his auntie stall. Okay then. I ask again! Where's him actually cause saound very noisy and all. He told again, he is in the room of the stall and ya ramai orang kat kedai bising. I'm just quiet while saying, "Okay. Yaa.." Then dia pown cakap, line DG so kimak all those that. I percaya and said, nevermind then. And that night he didn't call me at all! Sedih just waiting his call but dia tak call. Okay fine..

Next day on Tuesday, after I'm reach home back from school he called me. He ask, "Eh tak keluar whateverso!?" I said lhaa no. Wanna go out with who. I don't have a friends here that gonna bring me out. And ya he told me, "Kalaw I ada kat Kluang mesti you keluar dgn I kan.." So ya I said, YES! Hmmmm

1hours later, he called me back and saying, "You keluar rumah.." I feel so strange that time cause usually, he didn't allowed me to go alone! But why that time he so lovely allowed me to go out. Wehhhhhhh so hot lhaa. Panas kay kat luar. Aku dengan belum mandi malas nak keluar ah. He forced me to go out! Memang that time dah kena sumpahan serana lhaa. Before that he called and said he's at Kelantan. Bunyik bising sebab dengar bunyik angin kereta and he denied it he said, no, bunyik kipas roommates bring it from his house! Okay fine mengalah just mengiyakan.

Suddenly, he called me and appeared infront of my house! Fucking shit! What the hell of this?!! And ya I masuk kereta and I punched him! I'm yelling at him but he just smile infront of me while saying this is all just a surprise for me. I feel so touched that time wanna cry but I can't!!!!!!! What so babisssssss

After that, I masuk rumah tanak jumpa dia! Elehhhhh kejab jeah lepastuh masuk kereta suruh dia jalan. Kay dia jalan. In the car, I tak bercakap dengan dia. Dia pujuk for sure I'm just ignore. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

So then when I'm started talk with him, everything is just fine after that. Ya we're happy and all. Me more happy! Crying is the mostly part we've used to do :')

So then ya the next day and all, we're dating and meet and all. Gahhhhhhhhhhhh! All is precious moment and time with him :)

And ya we keep going out in a couple of days ago since he was here. Not a couple of days but a weeks! Trust me. We're just going out and actually he need to study not to going out with me cause I've told ya don't always go out cause you balik sini untuk study week and he ignored it cause he said to me he wanna meet me cause he miss me much! Ya well actually, me too. Hik hik ><'

Then kami keluar, karaoke berjalan semua semua lhaa! Ohhhhhhh best gilaaaaa! Moment kay moment.  Hahahaha seminggu keluar non stop tak kira days or nights even mummy dah warning jangan keluar malam yet, I still do it cause wanna met him. Rindu doeeeeee! Berminggu-2 ceq nangis rindu dia. Haaaa nampak tak poyo? Hahahaha

So last day I met him on Tuesday, we're going some place that so sentimental for me! Hahahaha the place where are we've met and got falls in love. Ya maybe I can tell it just like a first sight love. Hahahaha part niyh poyo. Okay Roibo tempat kitaorang awal jumpa yang dia nak usha gua tak dapat. Haaaaa tak dapat jak kaw time tuh. Padan muke kaw! Hahaha he accompany me makan sebab lapar balik sekolah aku tak makan apa sampai keluar tuh. So dia temankan makan macam biasa. Well actually banyak diam that time cause wanna remember the first we saw each other and tak bertegur cause that time I'd thinking, "Okay wanna accost him but sorry I knew you're not knowing me cause I'm not the one hotstuff kat Kluang. Pity me T.T". Liddat ah a bit. Hihihiih :D

Then after that, kitaorg pergi tasik. First place masa date dulu. Hahahaha laka-2 lhaa weyh. Okay aku mendiamkan diri sebab aku teringat masa awal-2 date tuh kan. Aduhhhhhh -.-

And that time kena marah jugak ah dengan dia sebab dia pelik dengan perangai aku yang jadik pendiam. I just want him know that I'm trying remembered all those memories between me and him! Dah nak masuk 4bulan kay. Okay tak sambut pown sebab dia kat Kelantan and I just boleh mengharap tempat yang dia bawak as present annimonthsary of us! The place that we'd met and first date and all! Okay he said to me, "Are you already dumb?" Okay memang terasa nak nangis but just ignored and smiling. I used the way the we took before. 

He just followed me up there. Ya look like a stupid enough when the boy followed girl but NOT GIRL! Okay then.. Masuk kereta kena marah kena bebel. I just do ignore sambil makan jambu batu kering that I'd buy at KM. Lalala sampai satu masa I can't take it and I'm crying. Hmmm how I wish he understand me why I'm just silent and smiling in front of him! How I wish he remembered the way that I took when the first time we're date and talking, story some stuff and all. Ya I'm crying :'(

I have a reason why I do all of that. And that time, I just feel want to whisper at his ear while saying, "Do you remember all of this, Honey? :)". If I could do that, I will but my mouth so heavy that time wanna tell him and the mostly thing I do that time is, smiling. Remembered memories. So sentimental for me! I don't even cared what you guys wanna say about it but it is too much precious in my life that I couldn't have it in TWICE! :'(

I'm over crying to him cause I'm so terrified if I need to lose him one day and I hope so it will not happen in my life. So then please do favor keep me calm when I'm trying and he did it. Don't want lose my loved one like I lose it before. Don't wanna be same like before. So terrified. Everyday I'm just only can pray for our relationship hope nothing bad happen to us. And crying for sure. Hmmm :'/

Here some latest photos from us during last week. Tak banyak pongggggg :P

Okay this time at McD ada krisis time dalam kereta laka-2 ohhhh -__-

Gheti jeah senyum leklok. Memang tak lhaaa~ Hahaha

2hours we spent time together at karaoke. Memang noob time niyh sumpah

Smileeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

And ya the story end here :)

*pause*

Weh kejabbbbbbbbbb!! Ada lagik satu gambar niyh. Jab jab hihi

Teneneneneneeeeeee *lagu Nokia 3310*

Wanna know the reason what? He wore my favorite outfit, the blue jeans shirt and also the present that I gave to him for his birthday last month. I see how much he appreciated the present that I gave cause usually when we go out together, I will said and ask, "What an ugly watch! Who gave you huh? *muka tak puas hati*" . And he will replied it, "My fiancee, Shazleena yang bagi for my present :)" . Okay that time I will stop asking him and smile. Nak nanez pown adewww hua hua hua :'3

So then ya. This one is truly end here. Hahaha so haaaaa~ 

Muhammad Fitri Hakim b A. Manap,

 I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU!!! ♥♥♥

 GHINDUW GHINDUWWWW 

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Honey, I miss us. I miss between of us.

You and me

Together here. You're beside me always

Everyday,

me loves you more.

And I don't wanna lose you.

I'm stronger. No!

I'm dying here without you :'(

It is killing me slowly when you're not around here with me.

How can I?

Live

life

breath

without you?

I'm trying

Yes I do!

Makes me more love you.

But

more to miss you :'(

Take care of yourself, Honey...

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)

Happy One Month, Muhammad Fitri Hakim! ♥

Yes, we're already one month in our relationship and alhamdulillah, I am too much happy. Syukur alhamdulillah. Allah send this guy with a beautiful and sincere heart to me and make me know that I'm not alone cause now I have him that accompany me in my life after Allah S.W.T, Rasulullah S.A.W, my parents and my siblings. That's all! I don't ask more for it but now, it is completely my life, Alhamdulillah :')

One month in relationship, three month we as a friend before he proposed me 2 days before Eid 2012. What a very surprise! Ya, he told me before that he wanna propose me but dunno when. And ya, he proposed me. Face to face with no ring, a bouquet of flowers or chocolate (fasting month can't bring chocolate :P). So lovely. And we're crying together cause we're too much happy! In the car actually. This is the moment that I'm waiting for :'P

And ya, now we're already one month! We're celebrating raya together. Wore a same colors of our baju raya. He buying me a new dress ya maybe. Buy me a perfume that smell so lovely just like me lol! Hahaha ya mostly he spend his money for me but I don't like much.

Sept 12 is his birthday. Ya I buy something for his present. Chocolate and tetttttttt! It is cheap only. But he likes it! Alhamdulillah. And yes, he wore it infront of me last night at his house. Her mum make an open house.  He wore my favorite outfit and wore my present! So naise! Hahahaha kay done I love him :*

I love him so fucking damn much moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! InsyaAllah, we'll be together in Jannah if Allah willing it, Amin :) Pray for us. 

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =) 

Who's brought the colours? Who's give a strength to live? Who? And who? Who?!

Hahahahahaahaha *pause* 

My life. Happiness. Sadness. Boredness. Well never get bored. But I admit it, I'm too much fucking damn happy! With who? A guy with an honest heart *I guess*. Ya I do. He came to my life before I broke up with my ex before. It just take one month that I can fully fall in love with him. I guess, how can I do that? I wonder, there's too much annoyed that I can fall in love with a guy so fast like this! *pause*

Now, we're just like king crab! Everywhere that we go, I just with him! Us! No one else. How? Oh I can't describe how much I love him. I do. I love other before this but not like this! Understood?

He make me so special and his life *I guess*. He made my life. It's wonderful! He willing to do anything for me yet, he will never died for me! Such a cruel. Hahahaha lol. There is nobody want to died. Everybody want to life. Live a life! Fuck it's yelling me..

Yes I'm happy. Just can say that, I'm a big girl, with a big smile, I'm happy. Thank to Allah cause He send a good guy to me. He love me as I am. No fake! He do. He admit. Everyday. The words of "I LOVE YOU" keep repeat it almost everyday! No bored.

We are already 2months and 3days. We're not couple yet! Just keep being a friend first. Still in process of the introduction. I guess. Hahaha just look like we're not a friend! More than! Couple? Loving each of us. Haaaaaaaaaaaa dunno how to describe fucking hell love him! Arghhhhhhh

We're promising to not leave each other of us. I'm wishing this is the best ever part in my life forever and ever till Jannah, insyaAllah :) I'm tired, feel so fucked up. I don't want to lose him I swear! For right now, he is the ever best for me. He know me well. Understand me. He know how to make me smile when I'm sad. He know how to taking back my mood when I'm not in mood. He make me held up till the sky. You guys will never know how much I'm crying everyday that because I'm happy :')

I'm too much! I knew, he far away from me right now. He is in Kelantan while me, in Johor. So far. Never mind then. Once 2weeks we met. Hahahahaha best moment! He is the best for me right now. I've never know him before! We've met on Facebook till we met in the real life.

He told me the first time he saw, he just fall in love at the first sight! Lol I just laugh till I've got hurt on my tummy. That time I won the photography contest. And chill up at Roibo with my other friends. He on there with his friend. He stands next to our table where is I saw him and he too. That time I knew him too! And ya wanna accost him but I feel so shy that time. Just ignored it..

He told me that wanna chase me but unfortunately, I'm just gone that time. He wanna ask my number but didn't get it! Hahahahahaha feel so sorry to you :P

Till then, we've met back at my sister's friend wedding ceremony where is I met him back. That time, I accost him first! No wonder lhaa that time dia terpinga sebab lambat loading to remember me! Bongok! Hahahaha till then the night he IM chat me and ask for my number. Then I gave the number! Fuck!! Hell so fast and I'd thinking how can I give so fast liddat? Can I trust him much? Hmpp

So then on Wednesday, June 6th, I'd just plan wanna meet Fyah with Ateen. So then I ajak dia sekali. Lepak at Oldtaste till late night. Then ya the next day, Thursday! He ask me to going out with him before he got to go back Kelantan. That time I'm so lazy wanna go out. But ya then just go out with him. And I don't know why, just feel so happy when I'm with him. Swear I do!

So then these things became so long until right now! We're texting everyday. Calling everyday. Ya until I fall in love with him now. Hmm so fasttttttttttttttttt

Ya seriously now I do, I love him so much! Oh gosh hate to tell you the truth is! Grrrr

Muhammad Fitri Hakim b. A Manap ♥

Thank you so much cause you cheers me up back. Thank you cause you always be there when I'm sad or else. Thank you cause you love as what I did. Thank you for all! I don't know how to describe it. I'm too much happy when I'm with you. Thank you. I love you, Honey. Forever till Jannah, insyaAllah :')

Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


I'm more stronger, more happier than before. This men make me feel alive. He wakes me up when I'm down. He is my precious moment now. I'm so thank with Allah. Alhamdulillah. So thank! I'm happy more happy and I'm a happy girl now :D


Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha <3>

Hi and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


Today's mood? SPOIL! Arghhhh semua tak betul! Aku resah, gelisah, menyampah! But ada satu part yang tak spoil is when HIM, yaaaaa HIM! Oky he call me back! Yeayyyy!! Tadi petang. Kejab jeah. Dia ajak p lepak minum. Tak. Aku tak ikot. Aku duduk dirumah. Mummy takde ada meeting. Hmppppp rugi kan kan? :'/


Kembali ke tajuk asal. SPOIL! Ya okay aku admit memang spoil! Wadafuq with it I'm also don't understand. Tadi mummy ada meeting, so then I'd call her up and asking when we can fetch her from school. Before that, aku dah siap-2 dengan make-up blusher bagai. Alahhhh paham-2 jea lhaa orang perempuan kan? :P. Oky then dah lepastuh, aku siap-2 ah dengan baju bagai. Abang kat bawah bising-2 entah menda jadah malas amik port. Siap pakai tudung masuk kereta ikot abang amik mummy! Okay dalam kereta abang bising, eh ingat nak layan? Daaaaaaa~


Then before that dah deal dengan mummy. Aku nak makan bakso. Entah apehal tekak aku nak makan bakso. Dalam kereta cakap ah dengan abang nak makan bakso kat kedai CikTi. Dia terus marah-2 aku ituh ini bagai! Arghhhhhhhhhhh! Memang aku diam. Dalam hati sakit niyh. Erghhh!! Sampai rumah masuk bilik then nangis sebab kena marah. Akak aku asyik gheti siap cepat! Geram betol aku. Aku niyh memang ah mandi lambat tapi bila bab make-up dah cepat jeah aku siap!


Memang nangis ah dalam bilik. Habis dah make-up aku. Penat jeah solek. Macam sibet! Mummy kat bawah jerit, "Adikkkkk! Cepat dik nak pergi dah. Adikkkkkkk..." . Senyap! Aku diam sambil tangisi. Sedih doe kena marah. Dah lhaa aku jarang kena marah dengan abang. Bila sekali kena marah, berjurai-2 airmata aku berderet lajuuuuuu turun! T.T


Mummy masuk bilik pujuk aku. Aku diam jeah. Hmpppppp cakap dengan mummy pasal abang teresak-2 aku. Sedih sumpah sedih! Dugaan aku nak Sweet Sixteen kan? Hihihi . Then mummy turun dan mengulangi perkara yang sama panggil nama aku. Redha.. Aku turun bawak camera and alat make-up. Mana tahu sampai sana kompom touch-up kan? Kah kah kah XD


Dalam kereta seribu bahasa mendiamkan diri sedangkan aku duduk sebelah abang yang tengah drive! Then dia mula memujuk ku dengan bicara yang baik. Haaaaaaa ingat gua cair ah? Bluekkkk :P Then dalam kereta memang diam macam tunggul! Pergi BP Mall. Oh dalam kereta perot aku dah senak. Lapar. Dari pagi tak makan kaw bayangkan! Memang aku takboleh hidup macam tuh. Cukup masa 24hrs mati terkojol aku tak makan! Hahahahahaa. Then sampai jeah bisik kat mummy, "Ma, adik lapar. Perot dah bunyik niyh :(" . Mummy pown apa lagi. Haaaaa "Adik nak makan kat mana? KFC, Kenny Rogers?.." . Angah pulak menyampuk, "Dik, nak Big Apple tak? Tuh haa makan burger nak? Dik nak makan apa dik?" . Aku pown diam jeah ah! Tawaran makan menyumbat-2 niyh haa. Nak makan apa eak?


Aku moody! Mulut aku jangan cakap. Memang lain pattern sikit aku niyh. Lastly aku decide nak makan KFC. Okay makan mende entah nama. Aku makan jeah. Tuh haaa ada apa entah nama! Dengan roti tortilla. Jadah natang halal taktahu mende. Okay aku sorang jeah makan. Mummy teman aku makan. Akak abang aku lenjan entah kemana beli barang katanya. Okay siap makan aku ciao dengan mummy jalan! Sambil jalan ah macam biasa ah gosip. Wakakaka! Then angah call carik kitaorg. Aku pulak phone kat kereta entah macam mana boleh sumbat kat situ gelabah babi! Erghhhhhhh


Jumpa angah bebel itu ini pot pet pet pot! Malas layan! Okay jumpa something yang buad lilin tangan tuh. Cantik. Nak buad angah tak bagi. Sedih! Then lentok bahu mummy nak nangis. Gua memang akhir-2 niyh cepat touching ><' Then diam lagik! Memang sebenarnya aku banyak diam sejak lepas kena marah dengan abang. Hmppppppppp. Beli baju lagik! Larrrrrrrrrrrrrrr bulan Mei bulan beli baju jeah untuk aku. Hahahaha :P


Makan kat Mee Racun! Aku dah makan sebelum tuh kenyang alhamdulillah. Sambung makan Kueh tiau goreng. Tuh pown tak habis suruh abang habiskan! Hehehehe. Macam biasa lhaa. Sebelum balik Kluang, kena singgah Tutti Frutti! Haaaaaa habuan merajuk aku tuh! Kah kah kah XD Tak beli kat BP tapi kat Taman U depan kampung aku. Okay lepas niyh kalaw balik kampung kena singgah TF dulu! Hahahaha then beli masuk kereta makannnnnnnn! Tak sempat sebenarnya bawak balik rumah nanti kang cair. Hehehe. Happy happy :D


Till then, I admit it harinie mood memang spoil! Nevermind then. Dah dapat TF okay dah balik boleh cakap. Tak bisu lagi. Kah kah kah XD


Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha <3

Hi and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


Happiness? Just let the waves wash it away. Stupid! I've just got it back and now? Ya, I'm let it with my OWNSELF! Let the waves wash away my happiness. Pathetic! Till then..


Wassalam =')

Xoxo, Scha <3

Hi and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


See? If we want change that because of Allah, He will send a good person to be with us. InsyaAllah. What I do all of this with a sincere heart, just for Allah. InsyaAllah ;)


Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha <3 

Hi and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


I am ordinary human. That trying to change myself to be a better person. Bukan sebab orang lain. Tapi kemahuan diri aku. Tiada siapa yang paksa aku berubah. As like what I say, KEMAHUAN AKU SENDIRI! 


I'd just realize it that I need to change up myself. Tanpa mengharapkan bantuan orang lain. Ini masanya aku kena ubah attitude aku, manners aku, cara percakapan, and all the things aku kena banyak ubah! Sumpah aku serik dah macam niyh. Dengan perangai aku yang sebegini rupa, ada orang yang membenci aku. I'm sure with it!


Sokongan? No! I don't think so I need that. Trying to do it myself. Aku nak ubah banyak benda dalam hidup aku! Kalaw boleh segalanya! Tapi aku tahu, if I'm trying so hard and at the ending of it there's nothing change too, tak berguna jugak. InsyaAllah, I hope all the things I'd plan gonna be ease. And mudah-mudahan juga, perubahan aku niyh akan memberikan impak yang besar dalam hidup aku. Amiiien..


Wassalam =)

Xoxo, Scha <3

Hi and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


Guess what? Tadi petang jumpa Mr. N . And for sure lhaa nak settlekan our problems. There's have something that I didn't know or maybe tersilap pandang! Saya manusia biasa buat silap dan akan menyesalinya :'/


Harinie, dia beritahu aku motif sebenarnya masa dia bercinta dengan aku yang sebelum niyh. Yang membuatkan aku separa gila gara-2 kehilangan dia. Motif dia just like nak senangkan aku where is that time aku baru lepas putus dengan ex aku! I was shock and extremely I'd just like wanna falls but I keep standing over there infront of him and for surely I cry.. I'd just got know about that. So then, aku biarkan benda tuh and buat macam that things tak wujud dimana motif dia sebegitu rupa! Okay let it go past. I don't care about that anymore. Okay!


Then ego aku? I admit it. Aku ego. I am so sorry my dear lovely Mr. N! Saya tahu saya ego lebih and ego saya lebih dari awak. Okay but the fact is now, your ego more highest than me! Okay never mind. Awak bersabar dengan sikap ego saya dimana saya pentingkan orang lain dari awak and saya niyh sikap macam, argh saya pown taktahu lhaa! Stupid damn ass with my own manners. I'm also don't understand with it. Damn!!


Sebenarnya aku sendiri tak sedar dengan sikap aku kebelakangan niyh. Kemungkinan aku kepenatan and aku stress fikirkan pasal benda yang tak siap semua niyh! It is small matter but for me, it's a big matter yang melibatkan something and kerjaya and cita-2 aku nak capai! Arghhhhhhhh it's damn fuckin' stress in my mind now. And now, aku exam! Fuck it. Aku akan semburkan kata-2 yang tak sepatutnya aku sembur! Pergi mampos blog aku kesah apa?! =.=


Aku tak nak sebenarnya jadik dalam hidup aku dengan N. Siapa yang nak wei gaduh almost everyday?! Who's want it? Siapa nak memang sumpah noob sepenuh masa budak tuh! Wei, aku tak nak gaduh dengan dia. Aku nak berbaik and always be good together in our relationship. But now, I'm gonna be alone back. Where's my love? He gone leave me alone here that because my own manners. My manners, my ego. Such a rude one!! :'/


Aku separuh gila kalau macam niyh. Lepas jumpa dia, balik rumah masuk bilik mummy tanya what happen then aku buad dunno amik bantal busuk kesayangan pujaan hati tekup kat muka and nangis! Time tuh nak balik aku fikir jugak nak melilau tempat lain. "Berjalan di atas kaki awak sendiri tanpa memerlukan pertolongan orang lain." . Ayat tuh dia bagi tadi. Sebab dia tahu, aku seorang yang jenis ikut kata hati and lebih ikut kata kawan. 


Tadi sebenarnya, aku takut nak jumpa dia! Takut dia marah and maki aku macam mana dia call aku semalam and marah gila-2 dekat aku! Time tuh memang set ready airmata jeah lhaa kalau dia marah aku. But alhamdulillah dia tak cakap kasar dengan aku. Dia cakap slowly tapi dengan nada yang tegas! 


Aku sendiri sebenarnya taktahu nak klasifikasikan diri aku niyh macam mana and jenis pendirian diri aku! How could I am do that on my beloved person? Ignoring him? Never cares him. But he? Totally cares on me. Dia pedulik pasal aku. Aku? Fuck off go hell lhaa aku niyh! Memang tak guna! :'(


Sumpah ku menyesal. Tapi aku tahu benda tuh semua tak guna. Aku nak dia balik :'( Sumpah! Tweet aku harinie memang penuh aku update pasal dia! Arghhhhhhhhh!! Selamanya aku akan anggap dia tuh boyfriend aku sebab aku sayang dia wei!! Pergi mampos kalau nak cakap aku batak bagai dengan dia but niyh aku cakap jujur woi! Aku sayang dia :'(


Jangan melihat luaran saya. Jangan melihat kebahagian luaran diri saya apabila awak sendiri tidak tahu derita dalaman hati saya. Andaian sebegitu rupa boleh membuatkan saya rasa tak dihargai oleh awak. Seriously! Awak jangan anggap saya bahagia tanpa awak. Sebenarnya, hidup tanpa awak membuatkan diri saya KOSONG! Saya bagaikan boneka. Tak tahu mana arah tuju harus saya bawa diri. When I'm with you, the things gonna be ease! I swear! :'(


If you read this N, I want you know that my heart deeply loves you. I do ♥ :'(


Wassalam =')

Xoxo, Scha <3

Hi and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


Sebulan tak update blog what the hell happens on meeee!!! Hahaha till then. The good things tak share, and the bad things pown tak share. Sorry busy sikit. Hehe


Hari niyh sengaja bukak blog and see how many my followers. Memang tak up pown. Gitu jeah jadiknye. Hehehe. Hmppp well mestilah bila aku dah bukak blog nak share somethings bad and the really bad worst and the other words yang seumpama dengannya! 


Arghhhhhh finally aku menyerah dengan apa yang terjadik kat hidup aku! Hanya mampu menangis ditepian gantang macam baru lepas mati laki. Hmppp sorry belum kahwin lagi. Ayat tuh memang poyoss :'P


Aku taktahu nak cakap macam mana. Salah aku? Atau dia? Jawapan aku sendiri takdapat nak pastikan. And for surely, the things now for me gonna be bad! I felt something yang sememangnya aku pernah lalui dengan dia. Bergaduh? Kebiasaan bagi kami. Masa couple and lepas couple putus baik gaduh baik gaduh! Entah bila titik noktah pergaduhan ini akan berakhir. Aku menunggu titik noktah pergaduhan ini dimana aku akan bahagia dan tiada lagi pergaduhan. Semua ini tak patut terjadi!


Seriously, dia ajak jumpa aku nak settle semua niyh tapi aku tak bersedia jumpa dia. Sumpah! Rindu memang rindu. Sayang memang sayang. Tapi aku mengaku aku takut nak hadapi. Atau mungkin memang benar semua ini salah aku? Aku tak pasti. Aku tak dapat jawapannya..


Ulang tahun kelahiran aku akan tiba tak lama lagi. Aku mengimipikan satu majlis yang sederhana yang akan dihadiri oleh kawan-2ku and for surely, dia akan datang! I'll wait for it. Tak sampai masanya, dah jadi macam niyh. Bergaduh! Memang takde hal lain lhaa. Perlu ke aku bagitahu gaduh sebab apa? No need to tell. I'm here just nak luahkan apa yang aku pendam sampai hati aku sakit. Apa yang sepatutnya aku luahkan  sejak hari pertama bergaduh. Please, aku tanak benda niyh berlanjutan sampai satu masa, aku dan dia tak bertegur sapa lagi. Aku takut! :'(


Aku nak dia tahu aku sayang dia. Ah! Pergi mampos siapa yang nak cakap ayat aku jiwang bagai! Tak kacau kau tanam bunga depan rumah! Till then, firstly here aku nak cakap actually aku takut bila kena marah, kena tengking and mostly aku memang seram of course lhaa bila kena marah dengan orang yang aku sayang! Sumpah aku nangis. Suka hati nak kata aku fake nangis bagai. Aku tak pedulik! Menangis salah satu cara aku boleh lepaskan sakit hati aku, marah aku. And bila aku jerit, akan membuatkan gegendang telinga orang sebelah aku confirm pecah!


Hmpppp aku nak berbaik dengan dia. Dia ajak jumpa nak settle. But cara dia. Dia call aku dengan nada yang marah membuatkan aku memang tak berani nak jumpa dia. Sumpah aku cakap! Tak berani. Aku kenal perangai dia bila dia mengamuk. Memang semua dia tumbuk bagai *nasib aku dia tak tumbuk lagi* .. Nak berbaik dengan dia. Aku nak berbaik sebelum birthday aku. Please, I want him back as before. People gonna say this is too much fuckin' ridiculous or maybe my words gonna say "Stupid ass! Go do your own mind business. Jangan menyibuk lhaa babi -.-" ..


Wassalam =')

Xoxo, Scha <3

Hai and assalamualaikum to all my lovelies reader =)


Aku tak dapat nafikan, sejak Qylaa pindah JB kitaorg kawan berlima selalu nak bergadoh! Especially the things melibatkan diri aku jugak. Okay serious aku menangis aku sedih! Now they guys were just like ignoring me. I don't know lhaa sebab apa or maybe tersilap pandang or what but aku memang terasa, and sometimes tuh aku kecik hati dengan diaorg :(


Maybe it sounds funny or maybe strange but I am always ask somebody come to my class bila time rest. Panggil aku sesame turun p canteen. Sometimes panggil sometimes tak and buat aku marah. Aku selalu keluar rest lambat duduk dalam kelas. Kadang bila takde siapa panggil aku, aku sorang ah rehat bawak diri jalan kat library macam orang bodoh. 


Aku taktahu apehal, dalam beberapa hari niyh someone pissed me off or in other words buat aku rasa kecik hati lhaa. Taktahu salah siapa sebab dua-2 macam blank. Tak tegur each other and else. Seriously I do loves all my besties Risha, Mira, Aimi and Peah. Do more loves to Qylaa! And sometimes too aku tak dapat nak menyesuaikan diri niyh sejak Qylaa takdea. Kosong!


I'd try my best for all my friends to let they know who I am and I also want they know how deep loves I am towards them! Please. Give and takes each other is more better okay. Aku tanak gaduh dengan korang sebab aku sayang korang. Korang tempat aku ngadu yang dekat dengan aku sekarang. Tanak gaduh. Aku sayang korangggggggggg :'(


Wassalam =')

Xoxo, Scha <3